Parenting With Breast Cancer


When you are a parent, you want to protect your children from all the bad things in life as you love them so fiercely. You feel like this lioness with her cub, trying to shelter them from all impending harm. But when you are diagnosed with cancer, you are the one that sends your children’s world into a chaotic tailspin. Between the shock of diagnosis, the demands of treatment, and the uncertainty of what the future holds for you and your family, your children can’t help but be threatened by this disease that has invaded their lives.

Although I have had breast cancer 4 times, I only had children during the last bout in 2011. At that time, they were 9 and 11, old enough to understand what was going on but young enough that they still needed a parent who could be there for them 24/7. As a single mother with no other family for support, I found the competing demands of parenthood vs the painful realities of illness very overwhelming.

My children knew since a very young age that I had cancer 3 times way back before they were born. They were perversely proud of this fact about me as I guess it made them think I was Wonder Woman, able to beat cancer into submission at a single bound.

When after being cancer free for 16 years I learned it was back, I panicked about how I would explain this to my son and daughter. I had no idea how we would manage as in the past there was always someone around to take care of me. This time I was their caretaker and no one was volunteering to look after me (or them).

The children knew something was wrong before I was ready to have the cancer discussion. There were too many doctor’s appointments, too many whispered phone calls, and a few too many tears shed watching children’s television shows that weren’t particularly sad or sentimental. When your Mom bursts into tears over Sponge Bob’s latest escapade, the children fear the worst is about to happen. When they asked if they had done something to make Mommy so sad all the time, I knew I had to tell them the truth.



I did a little research on how to talk to your school age children about a cancer diagnosis. The articles mainly touch on three points which have been called the 3 “c” words. The first point is to call it cancer, not a generic sickness or a boo boo. The reasoning is that if they have a name and explanation of what your condition is, they will be less likely to worry about other more horrendous illnesses (maybe Ebola?) you may have. It helps as well for them to associate a specific term for the disease as they may become overly fearful of the word, “sick” as it applies to them. If they associate the word “sick” with Mommy having major surgery and going bald they may panic when someone calls them sick when they complain of a tummy ache or a sore throat. They may think their sickness may lead to the same extreme consequences that happened to Mommy. So instead of turning your children into hypochondriacs by using the word “sickness”, use the word “cancer” so they can differentiate between the two conditions.

This was the easy part for me. My children knew what cancer was because of my past history. On the other hand, they had never lived through it before and needed some explanations of the possible treatments that might be involved and the consequences of those.

My 11 year old son became fixated on the fact that I would lose my hair and that seemingly was his greatest concern throughout my treatment. Talking to him about my cancer now 4 years later, he admits he was secretly worried sick I would die and leave him. But it was safer for him to worry outwardly about my baldness, wanting me to wear a wig, even to sleep. My little caps and turbans were disturbing to him (let alone my bald head) even in the privacy of our own home.

My 9 year old daughter took my baldness and various head coverings in stride. She loved coming with me to the Cancer Clinic where free donated wigs and head coverings were there to try on and take home. She became my fashion co-ordinator, ensuring my hat matched my outfit.

She showed her discomfort about my cancer in other ways. For example, she would often feign sickness on my chemo days or at times I had oncology appointments. She knew I considered her too young to leave at home alone so she would often accompany me to these appointments. This was her way of exerting control of the situation. She seemed to think that if I went to a hospital alone, they would keep me and I would never return home.

Even though I strongly suspected her vague symptoms of illness were fake, it was clear that her distress levels were real. Taking her along to these appointments reduced her anxiety while insisting she attend school led to huge emotional meltdowns every time. It seemed the lesser of the two evils at the time although in hindsight, it would have been better for her education if I had a back-up person to send her to on those appointment days. My guess is that she would have recovered from her symptoms quickly and attended school to be with her friends. While neither child ever actively worried aloud in my presence that they were afraid I was going to die, 4 years later it is clear that was underlying their behaviour all along.

The second “c” word recommended to be included in any discussion of cancer with children is the word “contagious”. It is important that children know they will not catch cancer from you in the same way they could catch a cold. This encourages continued close contact like hugs and kisses, without the child worrying they too will become sick. My children seemed to readily understand this concept and were not afraid of physical contact with me.

The only times physical contact became a challenge were after the mastectomy and partial reconstruction, when I returned home sore with 3 drains hanging down. They had to be reminded that Mommy loved them but couldn’t tolerate a big bear hug quite yet. The other times physical contact became an issue were during chemo when they had a cold or flu and they were the contagious ones. They had to be reminded that my immune system was weak and if I caught their bug, I could get very sick. They seemed to accept that without question. I was the one who suffered guilt from not being able to care for them as a mother should when some bug got them down.


The third “c” word is “causation” in that Mommy’s cancer was not caused by anything her children did. The experts say that children under 13 are still in a developmental stage where they may blame themselves when something bad happens in the family. They may think that Mommy got cancer because I always nag her for new toys or because I don’t clean my room when she tells me to. I did reassure my children that they did not cause my cancer in any way. They both looked at me blankly as if the thought had never crossed their minds. That may be explainable by their knowledge that I had breast cancer 3 times before they were born. If they didn’t cause the first 3, why on earth would they think they caused the fourth cancer?

To help my children better understand my illness and their feelings about it, I brought home every age appropriate, “when your parent has cancer” book the Cancer Clinic had available. Although both enjoy reading, neither child showed any interest in the books even when I said we could look at them together. Maybe they thought we have to live with this stuff everyday, why would we want to read about it too?

Some cancer centers have programs specifically for children with parents living with cancer. We attended a half day program which the kids enjoyed very much as they saw others their own age living with a parent like myself. My daughter and I attended a Look Good, Feel Good program where we got to play around with and take home various cosmetics and wigs. My daughter decided I needed a purple wig to liven up my appearance so I would sometimes wear it at home for fun. This drove my son crazy as while he wanted me in a wig at all times, I was only supposed to wear wigs that were of the same color and style as my natural hair.

Trying to be a parent with cancer is challenging at best, although some of the sweetest memories of my life come from that period. Sometimes a simple caring gesture or word from one of my children would be enough to lift my mood for days on end. We did still manage to have birthday parties and a few fun outings during this year. Even at my sickest, when I was hospitalized for 4 days a week after my first chemo, the children got to spend one night with me in a private hospital room, a fun first for both of them.

Unfortunately, between the chemo brain and the PTSD, much of the year of Cancer 4 is a hazy blur to me. My children remember it better than I do. If I had to relive that experience again, I would seek out more support for both myself and the children. I also would have looked into one of the free camps for cancer families as we all needed a vacation after the previous year. They are just starting up in Canada but there are several established places in the US we might have qualified for had I known about them at the time.

While parenting with cancer can be tough going at times, especially for a single parent, it is doable as long as you can let go of your expectations of what perfect family life is supposed to look like. Sometimes a picnic on the floor altogether as a family can be more fun and memorable than a standard dinner at 5:00 gathered around the kitchen table. It’s your cancer, your family, and your lives together that determine how you best muddle through this difficult family time.

Sharon Greene January 3, 2015

60 thoughts on “Parenting With Breast Cancer

  1. As a parent living with cancer, but of a 2 year old, I wonder what the long term impact will be. I don’t say “cancer” to him, because he’d never understand it. But he knows when things are not right with me. The painful thing is that cancer is now our normal. And that’s just not fair. But I did talk to him about my hairloss. It’s on my blog.

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    1. I’ll have to read that post. Yes even at that young of an age, kids know when something is wrong with Mom. And no, its not fair for any child to have a sick parent, but cancer doesn’t come at convenient times in our lives. Not that there is ever a convenient time for cancer. I hope that there is not a long term negative impact on your son and that he accepts your illness and hair loss as just another part of his life. Best wishes to you and your son.


      1. He doesn’t seem phased by my hair loss anymore. He calls it, “mommy’s no more hair.” It’s kind of sweet.


  2. Perfectly written, Sharon. As a widowed Mom, when it struck me “once” 5 years ago, the agony was for my kids and their life, not mine. I finally accepted my 6 month ultrasound, biopsies and MRIs every year and am grateful that I have such wonderful Dr’s looking out for me.

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    1. It really is the kids we worry about more than ourselves. Even when my mother was dying of cancer and I was 33, she seemed more concerned about how I would fare without her than her own death. I didn’t really get it until I had kids of my own and worried about messing up their childhood and leaving them too young. Thanks for your comments and thanks for understanding.


    1. Thank you! At the time, I didn’t feel very inspirational. I worried that I was messing up their childhood.But luckily they have turned into 2 young teens who have much compassion for the sick.


      1. Very often, Sharon, the things that appear to be going wrong are actually going right. God works in wonderful ways. Sometimes he gives us a heavy load to carry to make us develop strong muscles and become strong.

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  3. Sharon – Thank you for sharing this. I am a 4-year breast cancer survivor and am having my first child in June. I hope I don’t have to deal with recurrence, but your courage and spirit are so inspirational. Much love to you and yours! ❤

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    1. Julieann, there aren’t many of us 4 time breast cancer survivors that I have heard of. Congatulations on your pregnancy! Although my chemo at 34 didn’t put me into immediate menopause, it did cause premature ovarian failure. Even 2 rounds of IVF failed. We opted for the adoption route and I feel immensely blessed with my son and daughter. All my best wishes to you. May the cancer stop now. I hope you will keep coming back to comment and visit as I bet we have a lot in common.


      1. I’m very sorry to hear that chemo impacted you that way. While my eggs were impacted, fertility treatments worked for us.

        Adoption is a beautiful thing and I’m glad you have a lovely family! ❤

        I was 28 when I was diagnosed. I can't imagine being 34 and parenting while having cancer. Your strength is more than commendable.

        I look forward to following your blog.

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      2. Thankz Julieann. I am happy that cancer did not take away your ability to get pregnant. I mourned that loss for quite awhile. Adoption has worked out wonderfully for me and I would highly recommend it as another way of starting a family.

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    2. I’m sorry I misread your comment. You are a 4 year breast cancer survivor not a 4 time one. Sorry for the mix-up. Please come back as I am so delighted you are having a baby.


  4. Love this post. Detailed enough to help anyone going through the same struggle yet not too much as to appear full of self-pity. Honest. Truthful. Probably the best way to take on your challenge. As the spouse of a pastor, I have been a part of many visits to cancer patients. They all know the score. But the one thing that always amazes me is the attitude. “I’m going to live as long as I’m alive,” one said. And I think you are doing just that. Great job!

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    1. Thank you so much for your comments! There is no doubt that it was a tough year but we all made it through to the other side eventually. In many ways, we became more bonded as a family as we drew closer together to weather the storm. I am very fortunate to have 2 wonderful children who developed compassion for the sick as a result of our year of cancer.


  5. Really outstanding, and I know this will help many people. What a rough year. In the US we have Gilda’s Club in several major cities, and this place does a lot for the families of those with cancer. This organization has group therapy for kids, where they draw. It’s a festive environment, considering the circumstances. Great post!

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    1. Thanks for your wonderful comments! There are no Gilda’s Clubs in my province though they are badly needed. My kids really enjoyed their half day session where they met other kids with parents with cancer. My son couldn’t object to my wearing a hat in public as the other Moms were dressed similarly so he could relax a bit.


  6. Can’t imagine how much you and your family have gone through. you’re really a strong person, being a single mother is hard enough, talk less of fighting with a disease. Good thing you did was let your kids know what you’re going through.

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  7. A fantastic post ~ with a great opening photo… The minds of children are great, precious ~ and in a sense pretty fragile as well, especially when their mother is sick. It must have been heartbreaking for you as well, not just worrying about your cancer but perhaps more with how your kids were handling it. And so it is uplifting to know you did in the best possible way.

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    1. Thank you so much for your wonderful feedback! It was very hard for me to watch the toll cancer took on my children. My son’s obsession with my lack of hair and my daughter’s clinginess were hard to watch as it was clear they were symptoms of a deeper distress.

      Thanks so much for reading and commenting! That picture of the lioness and her cub is really awesome to see isn’t it?


      1. If my Mom went through what you did when I was that age ~ I would have had great distress, couldn’t even imagine it. You’ve got great kids too, although I’m guessing you already know that!

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